If we try to force our will over God’s Will, He has a way of redirecting us
It may have seemed abrupt to most if you went to look for us and we just weren’t there anymore. I apologize for ghosting our community I honestly wasn’t sure which way was up at the time. At the time of closing Emerson Lane, I knew that we had to act in faith. God was guiding us to follow His will and not ours. It sounds good in theory, but taking action was harder than I thought it would be. God was showing us His will but kept willing my way over his.
I know for most of the people that were close to us when we stopped taking orders for Emerson Lane were aware that we were expecting our 3rd baby. Once we came to the realization of having a newborn and 2 other kids we really would not have been able to maintain the workload that was needed to keep Emerson Lane going. What the majority of our customers and close circles did not know is that I was also looking to go back to work in the corporate world driven by mostly financial reasons.
God’s Will And Not Mine
Hindsight is always 20/20 and I feel like I have more clarity on the path that God has taken us on and WHY I have come back to this community. We are starting over in a sense as The Holland Haus but we are still the same people that were behind Emerson Lane. This time around we won’t be providing any goods and services. Instead, I feel that God has been calling me to share my life, our family, and the relationships we are each developing with Jesus Christ through The Holland Haus.
What you can expect next
I don’t want to get ahead of myself on what will be coming in the following months but I did want to give you some perspective on what has led me here and further what you can expect to see more of.
God is so good and persistent when He is trying to connect and guide us even when we can’t see it. I have had a strong calling on my life to share God’s goodness through my testimony as well as help provide a safe place to connect and learn together.
Vulnerable moment ahead- God didn’t promise an easy road
There have been common themes that I have struggled with in my life that I feel can give hope if you are battling some of the same struggles. My hope is that through my pain, you will see that God is bigger than any of our worldly problems because HE is enough. God has been working on me and I am freed from some of these strongholds, however, I still have a lot of work to do. Instead of waiting until I think that I’ve got it all figured out God has called me to step out in faith now, in the middle, in the mess, to have you walk with me through the process. It won’t always be pretty but here’s what God is working on within me—
- Finances
- Heartache and loss
- Isolation
- Who am I?
- Whose am I?
- What is my purpose
- Brokenness
- The many faces of fear
Let’s Be Real Together
Do you know how hard it was to even write those 8 themes down? At one point in time, each of them has consumed me. Flat out taken me out! So I pray that as I step out in faith that God will use my pain for the good of others.
I know it’s the internet but I believe that we can be real humans here. I’ll start by being vulnerable and honest with you. As much as I have tried to keep it all together on the outside I am not together on the inside. I’m talking about my head, my heart, my emotions, my house, my kids, my parenting you name it. I am a work in progress just like the next gal so be easy on me and let’s show each other some grace!
Stay tuned for more
If this all sounds like what you are needing and have been praying for please let me know in the comments as to confirm that this is where God needs me to be, right here, right now, sharing my heart with you.
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